I’m struggling for words here. Powerful stuff from R.A.’s book.
The babysitter has her way with me four or five more times that summer, and into the fall, and each time feels more wicked than the time before. Every time that I know Im going back over there, the sweat starts to come back. I sit in the front seat of the car, next to my mother, anxiety surging. I never tell her why I am so afraid. I never tell anyone until I am 31 years old.I just keep my terrible secret, keep it all inside, the details of what went on, and the hurt of a little boy who is scared and ashamed and believes he has done something terribly wrong, but doesnt know what that is.
via Excerpt from R.A. Dickeys new book, Wherever I Wind Up – MLB – SI.com.
